On my turf.

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We are currently visiting my family and most of them are getting to meet my baby for the first time. I feel so happy and sad at the same time. It sucks that we don’t live here permanently yet but it’s also very nice to have a vacation. My husband took a whole day to walk alone in the mountains and it makes him want to move here even more. (Photos added to this post are from his walk).

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We get to relax a lot because my family loves baby sitting of course and it’s nice to miss him once in a while. My mom took him to meet her girlfriends for lunch today and I got to do some stuff I needed to do, plus relax and have a peaceful lunch with my husband. It’s nice getting to charge our batteries for when we’re back home with no help.

We still have a week left here and I’m going to try to enjoy it properly. Tonight we had dinner at my grandparents house. They are in love with Bjørn and she made my fave food. Fish, potatoes and vegetables. I like simple dinners.

While we were there I decided to weigh myself for the first time since giving birth. I knew I had lost a nice amount of weight since having him but not as much as the scale told me. I have lost 17 kilograms (37 lbs) since having him on January 31st. I’m proud of that. I feel great and think I’m starting to look more or less like my old self.

I hope you are having a nice end of June 🙂

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23 Random Questions.

I found this random list of questions on a website a few days ago and thought I’d fill it out myself, just for fun. These types of blog posts are one of my favorite to read on other peoples blogs and I love filling out things so here I go 🙂

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Zodiac sign: Aries. Height: 182 cm. Home country: Norway. Orientation: I’m straight.

Favorite season(s): Spring and fall. Favorite holiday(s): Jul (christmas in English) for sure, what’s not to love. Craziest thing to happen to you: Giving birth, hands down. That’s a crazy experience for sure. Favorite food: Japanese food. I love it all. Japanese curry, ramen, sushi – anything.

Favorite song right now: The 1975 – Somebody Else. First 3 songs that play during shuffle: Topic – Find You, Jonas Blue – Mama, One Republic – Kids.

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A random movie you like: I like British movies like Pride and Prejudice and About a Boy. Last movie watched: The Matrix. Favorite TV show(s): Louie, Desperate Housewives, Breaking Bad, Game of Thrones, House of Cards, The Bridge (Swedish/Danish version), That 70s Show, Friends.

Favorite Youtubers: Rob Dyke, TJ Kirk, Emma Blackery. Favorite Website(s): Reddit, Youtube, WordPress, Weheartit. Favorite animal(s): All animals. But if I have to choose I’d say dogs and whales. Last thing bought online: I haven’t online shopped in months but I bought some baby clothes when I was pregnant.

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Average hours of sleep: I don’t know anymore, haha. I have a 4,5  month old so sleep is what it is. Number of blankets you sleep with: One.

Dream trip: Oh it’s very difficult to pick just one place.. A few places I’d love to see are Iceland, Italy and Greece. Oh and Ireland would be fun too. It’s beautiful there.

Blog Created: July 2016 is when I posted my first entry. Story behind URL: It’s just a variation of my name. Number of followers: 80.

That was a nice waste of 15 minutes 🙂 Have a great weekend!

Single mom for a Week.

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Last week (from Monday to Monday) my husband unexpectedly ended up in the hospital. It started on Saturday when he got a high fever, he was ice cold, shivering and talked about a pain in his right leg. He first thought it was food poisoning or the flu, either could be possible but it was not the case. He went in to the emergency room on Sunday night and called me after a few hours telling me they found out it was a blood infection in his leg and he had to stay in the hospital for at least two days.

At that moment I was very happy that he went to the emergency room to have it checked out. Because at first we both thought it was something that could pass by staying in bed for a while. The flu usually passes within a few days. But he didn’t feel better and his fever got higher and higher. So I was glad he would be antibiotics and the treatment he needed.

One night in the hospital turned into three nights, and three nights turned into a week. I’m relieved he was well taken care of but it also meant I did everything without his help. And I think it was a good week for my confidence. I mean, I was already confident in taking care of my son obviously, but without any help for a week? (During the 4 month sleep regression.) A new and needed experience. It would come eventually. I did well. We visited him almost everyday in the hospital. He was released this Monday and he is on antibiotics in pill form, he has to stay off his feet as much as possible for one week and put some purple liquid on the red flaming skin where the infection was. He’s okay ❤

Mom of 2?

Lately I’ve been thinking really hard about how it will be to have another baby. Whenever I think about it there are several different emotions that rush through me. And even though I have decided that the positive emotions outweigh the negative, it’s still something worth mentioning.

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The feeling that comes forward the strongest is excitement. Thinking about bringing another baby into our family makes me just want to do it all right away. My son would have a baby brother or sister and my husband and I really want to experience this again. But there is also another part of me that feels guilt. I feel guilty that Earth is the only option for a place to live for my kids. Sounds weird, yes. But it’s getting worse and worse everyday and even though being born in 2017 sounds kinda cool because of how far we’ve come in certain areas, some people have stepped so far back in others. I won’t mention specifics because it’s heartbreaking, but ya’ll know. I know that fear is what they want us to feel and express and I try very hard not to let it scare me, but how can it not?

Another thing I can’t help but feel guilty about is knowing that when another baby “moves in” my son will have to get less attention and I’ll have to focus on both of them at the same time. Of course I don’t speak from experience here but it sounds very hard to give my all to two kids. Am I being a bit harsh with myself right now? Maybe. I don’t know.

Even though I have a tendency to get very negative in my frame of mind I try my best to see the positive in different situations. Yes my son will get less attention, but doesn’t that also help him from not getting spoiled? I mean, I have two siblings. One older sister by two years and a younger brother also by two years. We grew up together, in the same age range and we had so many good experiences being siblings. Our house was always full of either laughter or arguments but that’s what made my childhood great. If I didn’t have the siblings I have, who knows who I’d be today. Being a sister is something I take seriously and I love my siblings more then they probably realize and I want that experience for my kids. And in my mind giving my son the role of ‘big brother’ over shadows the negative thoughts I have about it. They aren’t really negative thoughts, more like concerns.

As you can read I’m very much here, there and everywhere. And that’s how I am with a lot of topics. I have strong opinions on a lot of stuff but I get confused at how I feel about some stuf. Haha. Anyway. I guess my conclusion is that yes, I would love love love to have more kids in the future and I hope we do. If we are so lucky. But I’ll be extra careful not to let my concerns take up too much time in my brain. I’ll also work on giving myself more credit and be more confident in my abilities. Being mom and wife is the best thing that could have ever happened to me and I love everyday of it.

Breastfeeding on a sidewalk.

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It’s too hot outside to function these days. I’m not made for 31 C. Since there is no beach near where I currently live I can’t go outside on days like this. There is just no point. There isn’t a single cloud in the sky and the sun is just burning everything in it’s path. If I’m going to be outside in weather like this I have to be either on a boat or on the beach so I have the sea to cool me down. I feel bad for the little guy too, he doesn’t like the heat either. Last night he slept in just his diaper with a very, very thin blanket over his body and I think that worked. We also had a fan on the floor making the room a bit cooler. Hopefully it will go down a bit soon.

My mom has been in town with us for the long weekend and we’ve had a lot of fun. Even though it’s been as hot as it has we’ve gone shopping, driven to a few different towns, been sight seeing and souvenir shopping. I collect those souvenirs magnets, haha. Even though I live here I’m still a tourist when we see new cities. Speaking of that, I can’t wait to be a tourist in my own country soon. We leave for Norway in 3 and a half weeks and I’m so excited. There I can go to the beach and swim and my baby will finally meet the rest of my family.

If you are near where I am I wish you well through this heatwave. Stay hydrated 🙂

Psychics and Mediums.

For the last few days I’ve been binge watching a bunch of videos of psychic mediums do “readings” on people. Sometimes they even do it in a room FILLED with people. 1000 people or more. Now before I started watching these videos I didn’t really have an opinion if this stuff is real or not but after going through all of these well known mediums I’m pretty convinced that this is all very good guessing and general questioning. I mean – come on. If I really went for it I’m pretty confident that I could do this job too. And yes, it is their job. These celeb mediums, Hollywood Medium (the fakest one in my opinion), the Long Island Medium and Lisa Williams make a loooot of money doing this.

In my opinion, when we die, there is nothing else that happens. I mean, we’re dead. Our brain is dead, our hearts stops. I just don’t see how there is something else that can happen. IMO, everything that makes a person, even their soul, it all dies at the same time. So how somebody can linger around a place, completely invisible yet they want to talk to some random person they just “met” and not their loved ones who loved them in their previous (real) life? I’ll never believe in psychics but I find it so interesting anyway. The fact that these people genuinely believe they have this “gift” and that they hear the voices of dead people is crazy. And I don’t believe that all of these people are big scams in the sense that they just do it for the money. I mean, why would they do it so out in the open and plaster their face on TV doing it? I don’t doubt that they themselves believe they hear these voices/see the faces etc. But Tyler Henry is an exception in my eyes.

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The Hollywood Medium. He is a young guy who has his own TV show. I haven’t watched the show I’ve only seen clips from it and seen interviews with the guy. But to me it is so incredibly obvious that he has Google’d himself to a lot of the things he mentions to the celebrities he “reads”. (They say that he doesn’t know where he’s going before coming to the peoples houses but I don’t believe that.) And I mean, EVERYTHING about celebs and their families is written online somewhere, it isn’t that hard to find. He even says during some of the readings “oh I don’t even know what you do for a living”. Yeah right dude. It’s all perfectly set up. There is a crew there, cameras, lights. I believe he knows who he’s meeting a long time in advance.

I’ve seen journalists put other mediums to the test and most of them never want to do a reading on the spot. They always say they need to prepare first. What is this preparation they need? I think it’s for research. I also find it suspicious when they ask the people they read to give them an object from the person they want them to “channel”. It makes the job ten times easier. Anyway..

I’m not going anywhere specific with this. I understand that most people visit a medium for comfort and to get some closure. But it’s just very shady the way they go about it sometimes. I’m going to make a new category on this blog called “Rants” because it feels nice to quickly type down a rant, about any topic really. Rant over. Have a great day 🙂

4 Months Old.

Tomorrow my baby turns four months and I can’t believe how quickly time has flown by. After putting him to bed last night my husband and I looked through the photos from the first days of his life and it’s incredible how small he looked then even though he was a fairly big baby (4,2 KG) compared to now. He hasn’t been weighed in a while but at his last weigh he was 8 KG. And he’s 70 cm long.

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Everyone who sees him for the first time now are very surprised when we tell them he’s the age he is, he he. Apparently he looks at least 6 months to other people. He’s going to be a big guy which is very normal in my family. I’m over 180 cm tall and my parents and siblings are also around that height or taller. Even though being very tall isn’t common on my husbands side he is taller than me so it all makes sense. I’m very curious to see how tall he’s going to be as an adult.

He has once again changed his routine. He now eats once a night and for the rest he soothes himself back to sleep. But he has started napping more during the day too. Short but frequent naps.

He smiles and laughs all the time and barely cries or fusses. When he does cry out loud it’s almost a little terrifying because it’s very rare. I think we’ve been very lucky with what some people call an “easy baby”. Even though having a baby isn’t easy at all it can make it a little bit easier having less crying. But I know I’ve been lucky and I don’t take it for granted. He also blows bubbles with his mouth. He drools and he is constantly eating at his hands which is a sign of teething and I have to be honest I’m very nervous about this.. You know how I just said he is an easy baby? Haha, that’s probably gonna change when his teeth starts coming in. I’m nervous but I’ll handle it.