Life Update.

I haven’t written a blog post in so long that I don’t even know where or how to begin. I don’t really have much to update on. The truth is that I hardly ever open my laptop. I should perhaps download the WordPress app so I can post on the go? I don’t know. I always say after a long break from my blog that I promise to do better. Now I’ve learned not to promise anything.

I’m reading my last post and it was from the day I last flew with my son. I said I’d report back but that never happened. Here is the recap on that: flying to our destination went fine, flying home went not so well. My son is like a worm. Seriously. He hates sitting still unless he is entertained and I have a serious worry about the future when it comes to road trips and flights. Does an iPad do the job? I’d assume so. I didn’t have one this time and I don’t give him one at home but he watches some cartoons here and there. I guess I’ll need to find a headset small enough for a 1,5 year old. Lol. We do a lot of road trips and flying so I need to find some way to keep him entertained. I had toys and some drawing stuff but he didn’t give a single.. Yeah. Haha! Luckily our flights are rarely over 2 hours so I survive but I must admit it gets a bit stressful when you realise even before take off that the kid is not in any sort of mood to sit still.

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Anyway. Our next journey is our yearly summer road trip from here to Norway. We’re staying all summer with my family. Possibly 2 full months. We leave on the 13th of July. My husband has to drive back alone after 4 weeks but baby and I (is he even a baby anymore? I think I can safely say toddler now? I’m actually not sure, lol) can stay longer. My sister gets married on August 4th and my husband is their photographer. Isn’t that sweet? It’ll be our wedding gift, that’s what they wanted anyway. I didn’t actually know how much a wedding photographer costs but when I Google’d it I realised they’ll save a fortune by getting it for free, haha! On top of that, my dad turns 60 in September and I don’t want to miss it. Soooo.. We’ll fly home together sometime after that. Sigh. I’ll def have the iPad ready for that.

When we return home in September however the biggest change comes. We’re moving. Rather, my husband will have moved all of our stuff while we’re still vacationing. HAHA! I feel bad but he says it’s fine and he will get help from other people of course. All I have to do is have all my stuff organised and packed before we leave in July.

We only lived here (where we are now) for 1 year. I just couldn’t do it. I wrote back then that I was so excited to move out here, but I learned quickly that it wasn’t the best idea. I was just so happy to be moving from where we lived before that (where we had extremely loud neighbours who was OUR LANDLADY so we couldn’t really say much without fear and I just generally hated the whole place) that I was just like YES ANYWHERE ELSE I’LL TAKE IT! I didn’t think it through. Where we are now is in the middle of nowhere and I don’t have my own car. You do the math. I miss the city. I miss walking around and seeing people. Going out to lunch. Anything that the city offers, I miss it. So we’ve found an apartment for a great price, the landlord is a chill nice guy (who lives nowhere near us btw), there are 3 bedrooms, a newly remodelled kitchen and two seperate small gardens with just enough space for kid activities and a little BBQ station.

I’m very relieved. I’m also very happy that this happened now and not when my son is in school and would have to move schools. I don’t know. It’s been a life lesson for sure. I mean.. I haven’t even bought any new furniture for the place we are in now because I realised quite quickly that it wasn’t a good move. I’ve enjoyed the peace of the countryside, sure, but I feel like I’m not old enough yet to where this will be what I want every day. I need to hear cars and see more people. Not just the horses that live on the other side of the road to our current place. Heh.

So that was my update. Hopefully I’ll get myself a proper desk soon so I can set up my laptop somewhere so I’ll actually start using it more often.

What are you guys doing this summer? ;3

– H.

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NERVOUS!

I’m flying with the bebe again tonight. This is the second flight we’re doing together and I’ll be alone with him this time too, and now I’m nervous. My husband booked the tickets and I didn’t know he booked it for 9PM.. I mean. Hello. That probably wasn’t the best idea. Unless we somehow are extremely lucky and get an extra seat next to us where he can lay down and sleep I’m not confident him being in the ErgoBaby during the whole 2 hours of the flight will work. We don’t use the Ergo too much but he does sleep fine in it if I’m walking. Maybe I’ll have to walk up and down the isles a lot.

I’m just very nervous right now and I needed to vent somewhere, haha. But if it goes well I’ll post a very relieved post when I come home.

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We’re going to Norway again for two weeks to see my family. I can’t wait. We went back in February and I’m going back again in June to stay for almost the whole summer. It’s the best thing ever to be able to travel home basically whenever it’s possible. I love staying with my parents, they love having us and it’s just all around a good thing.

Pregnancy & Baby Questions | Pt. 3

♡ Do you believe in staying home or going to work?
+ Whatever works for your family. I’m lucky enough to get to stay home but I know that it’s not possible for everybody. It’s a huge gift though and I love it.

What is the most rewarding part about being a mother?
+ Everything. I learn something new everyday.

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♡ Do you want more children in the future?
+ Absolutely! I’m very excited to be a mom of two, whenever it will be. I’m not in a rush. I love being home with my 14 month old right now. We have so much fun and I don’t want to add to our family just yet. But we do know that we want our babies to be close in age. I’m two years younger than my sister and two years older than my brother. That’s a bit too close for me but there are so many positives to having siblings growing up with you. Plus all the craziness that come with it. But mostly, at least for me, it was rewarding being one in the bunch. We had a good childhood. I’d love the same type of sibling dynamic for my kids.

♡ Any advice for future moms?
+ Enjoy the first year. They will never be that small again. That’s honestly the best advice I can give. Everything that comes after that is of course amazing too but the first year is such a blur that you must try to enjoy it as hard as you can! Also, take lots of pictures and get clothes with zippers 😉

♡ What is your biggest pet peeve about being a parent?
+ I’d love to say nothing but I did come up with one. I’m not a fan of food messes. Food all over the floor is never ideal. It’s slightly annoying but that’s life, haha! I guess everyone can agree on that one.

♡ What was the worst thing about your pregnancy?
+ Morning sickness. Or all-day sickness in my case. Also all my weight gain at the end. I finally got my appetite back at around 7 months and it came back with full force. I gained almost all the weight at the end of my pregnancy.

♡ Is there anything about your pregnancy you would change if you could?
+ I wish it was a breeze. I wish I didn’t have the fear of it not going well, the beginning of it was so difficult. I could barely eat at some points. I also wish I didn’t gain as much weight as I did at the end. But now I would never have been without any of it of course.

♡ What is something you miss about the life before kids?
+ I used to go to bed at 2AM and get up at noon on weekends, and I loved it. I still love sleep, it’s just very different now. Hah.

♡ Who did you want in the delivery suite with you?
+ My husband was the only one in there with me. My mother in law was hanging around the hospital the whole time. Since my family lives in another country I had to go through it all knowing my dear mama was far away. They did come visit a few days after he was born though which was lovely.

♡ You’re in the store with a full cart and your baby starts crying. What do you do?
+ So far using a pacifier has worked for my baby in these situations. But I can’t think of a time where it has happened yet. At least not a time where carrying him or pacifier didn’t work. There are still time for that. I assume lots of meltdowns in stores come more and more when the kid actually knows what all the stuff in the store is. Candy for example. Oh gosh ;p

Pregnancy & Baby Questions | Pt. 2

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Have you ever thought gosh I can’t do this, and why?
+ Probably. But only while exhausted. I remember when he was a few weeks old there was a short time where I got little to no sleep, I was still bleeding and I was super emotional all the time so I had a little breakdown one night. Quietly of course, haha. Luckily I had and still have a helpful husband.

♡ Do you think a married family with children is any better than an unmarried relationship with kids, if so why?
+ I don’t really see how that matters. Does it? I mean. If someone is living together, having children, helping equal amounts with everything etc. It shouldn’t matter if these parents are married or not. I’ve never thought about this until now actually. And that’s how I feel about it.

What are your views on young mums having children?
+ I doubt most of them have put themselves in that position on purpose. There are exceptions of course but I bet most of them just do the best out of their situation. And I will always have respect for those who enter parenthood. I was 24 when my baby was born so I guess I’m sort of a young mom. But I take this question to mean those younger than that.

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Did you go through postpartum depression? If yes, how did this effect you?
+ No. Luckily I did not have to go through that. I was very anxious for a while though. But never depressed or had doubts about my ability as a new mom. My confidence got stronger and stronger over time and now I’m very confident in my role.

♡ What techniques did you use to get through the pain of contractions?
+ Haha, I didn’t really have or use any techniques. I was completely out of it. It must have felt like an out of body experience, I can’t even remember what my thoughts were. I did not gain any control over anything until after I had the epidural. Oh sweet epidural.

♡ What were your first thoughts when you saw your baby?
+ Joy, relief and happiness. Nothing mattered after that. I’ve never felt a high like that and it’s definitely something I crave to experience again. All in it’s time though.

♡ How did you choose your baby’s name?
+ My sons name is inspired by a Norwegian folk singer. I remember as a kid seeing his name on my moms CD’s in the kitchen and his music being so soothing and lovely. I just always remembered that name and associated it with a nice guy. Haha, I had the name picked out from the moment I found out I was pregnant.

♡ What’s the hardest things about being a mom?
+ I enjoy every part of it but there are hard days. For me, I’d say the hardest thing is the anxiety that comes with it. You know, the thoughts of everything that could go wrong. It’s not a constant thing of course but when it hits – it’s terrifying.

♡ Share something your baby does that make you laugh.
+ Oh he’s hilarious and makes me laugh all the time. I can’t wait for when he’s fully talking, whenever that is. It’s going to be so interesting to hear what his personality is really like. We see it come out already of course but without any words. I’m so excited to see his future.

♡ What is your baby’s favorite toy(s)?
+ He has a few. He loves his bear that sings to him at night. He also has a Sophie the giraffe ball that he loves to shake around. Hmm. OH! And a rattle that looks like a butterfly has been a favorite since he was very small. He also loves his book with pictures of anything and everything that we read in together.

Pregnancy & Baby Questions | Pt. 1

Hi there. I’m back on the random questions wagon again. I just like doing these types of posts. The questions are about pregnancy and having babies. I’m not pregnant again and it’s been over a year but I thought it would be fun to sort of “recap” the life changing event that was my first pregnancy and having my first child.

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What was your first reaction when finding out you were pregnant?
+ I was hoping to get pregnant but I never thought it would happen as soon as it did. I think I got pregnant on the second or third try. My husband believes it was the first try but I don’t think it was. I remember that the second line on the test was VERY pink. It was a thick line, not a faint one. I had a few minutes to myself, processing. I remember feeling very anxious but so happy. My husband just said “I knew it” and gave me a hug. It was a special day. We Skype’d my parents and went to visit my mother in law. I didn’t know how far along I was at that point but I wanted to tell the closest people to us anyway.

What was your most common food craving during your pregnancy?
+ I always had to have water with ice cubes in it. I also remember craving meat quite often. Especially at the beginning.

♡ What was the hardest part about being pregnant?
+ I had the worst morning sickness for months and months. I didn’t have an appetite or felt alright until about 5-6 months into my pregnancy.

Where were you, what were you doing when you went into labor?
+ I went into labor at the hospital, with an induction.

♡ What was your labor experience? Natural, epidural? How long were you in labor?
+ To be honest I didn’t think too much about the labor until the last month of my pregnancy. I got a recommendation from my doctor that since I had a big baby that an induction would be a good idea if I didn’t naturally go into labor on my due date or a few days over. Had I known how bad being induced would be, I would have declined it actually. I wish I would have just let my body and baby decide that part. I’m not a doctor of course so it might have been the best choice for me and what’s done is done. But how quickly the pain started, I had NO time to get used to it. The contractions came 2 minutes apart from the beginning. I’m not joking. My body didn’t get to relax so I wouldn’t dilate. I wasn’t allowed an epidural until I was 4 cm and until I was 4 I thought I was going to die. Lol. After the epidural I finally could relax and I dilated super quick. On my last check she said she felt his head and I was 10 cm and could start pushing.

 Baby stats? Weight, length, time and date of birth.
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4,2 KG, 52 cm, 3:02 PM, 31.01.17.

♡ Did you have a good pregnancy?
+ Yes and no. The start of it was was not a good experience. Some days I couldn’t get out of bed and I barely got a piece of toast down at the end of the day. But the final months was alright. I felt cute, despite gaining a lot of weight. Lol. I loved feeling the kicks, I was getting so excited. We did all the shopping during the last months and I realized the most important thing I’ve ever realized: it was the meaning of my life to do this, be someones mama.

A Week of Pain and Babys First Flight.

This is the first time in weeks that I’ve actually opened my laptop for anything else other then for watching Game of Thrones. Haha. Nothing major has happened since my last post really. I turned 26 and my husband turned 33, that’s about it. We’re both March babies. Oh, and spring is on it’s way for sure. It’s getting a lot warmer and I’m loving that. OH. And the disaster that was my teeth a few days ago. I guess a few things has gone on.

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So.. About a week ago I started feeling a slight toothache, not too bad just annoying. But then a few days after that I got the worst toothache I’ve ever had. It was worse then getting braces put on (or having the braces tightened, omg wasn’t that just a treat too) or a pounding headache. Having tried my regular dentist he said I couldn’t get an appointment until the 19th of April and SCREW that. So we had to go to an emergency dentist last Saturday. It turned out I have an infection in the root of one of the teeth. The dentist had to drill a small hole in the back of my tooth to get lots of stuff out of there, disgusting. I didn’t need any pain relief because the whole tooth was just numb with pain so anything she did didn’t hurt. (Except if she tapped on it. THAT was pure hell for some reason.) It was a strange experience. I haven’t been in that much pain since getting induced last year. Haha! I did take that appointment on the 19th though so I can get a follow up and maybe another fix with my regular dentist.

I know I’m stating the obvious right now but isn’t it just so great when you’ve been feeling like shit for a time and then you feel like yourself again ❤

And running after a 14 month old all over the place and doing the basic chores etc around the house while feeling like that wasn’t easy. I will admit to just putting on Mickeys Playhouse and let him watch that so I could lay on the couch and feel sorry for myself for a while, lol. His face lights up when Mickey is on the screen and he laughs when they count. It’s so cute!

Anyway. I’m currently looking at prices for going home to see my family in May. I don’t think I wrote a blog post about our first flight in February? I just checked my blog and I didn’t write anything. My husband went 10 days to Africa for work so babys first flight was with me alone. I wish my husband could’ve been there to help me and to see it all go down because it was cute. (During some moments.. Hehe.) It went okay. On the way there he slept the whole time and we had the three seats to ourselves which was golden. But on the way back again, since my boy is a complete worm (as my mom calls it), it was very hard to keep him entertained. All he wanted to do was crawl everywhere. On me, on the person next to us, on the floor. Luckily it isn’t a long flight, 2 hours max. Sometimes a bit less. I used the ErgoBaby and he never cried. I was so anxious beforehand. Haha. Since I was alone I was very proud of myself after it was over. I hope the next flight will go smoothly. Probably not but I’m more confident about it now since we’ve been through it once.

I hope you’re having a good start to the month. Any fun April fools jokes pulled? ;p

He turned 1.

Wow. Hey. It’s me. The girl who told herself at the start of the year that she would try her hardest to be a better blogger this year. I have completely forgotten the whole blog. I’m actually serious when I say that, lol. I have good reasons though. Since my baby turned 1 on January 31st I’ve had my emotions go up and down a lot. I believe it has got to do with me stopping breastfeeding. It’s just been a little sadder than I thought it would be. While I was breastfeeding in the last months I didn’t find it cute and bonding anymore I was more scared that he was going to bite me, ha ha. Even though he never bit me once he has six teeth so it was a real fear. But besides the relief of no more bleeding nipple fear (I just couldn’t shake that, even though he never bit) it is quite sad that we don’t have that in our routine anymore. He’s so independent. Isn’t it crazy how fast that first year go and when the first birthday rolls around you feel like you just blinked.

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Anyway. He’s such a happy, funny and curious little man now and it’s of course lovely to be entering a new chapter. But it has to be allowed to be a little sad to be letting go of the “baby” phase. He’s still a baby obviously but you know what I’m saying. Some mom tears has been shed. I genuinely feel like I could be that person who has 10 kids just because it’s so lovely during the first year before it gets more difficult. Sounds very bad I know, I won’t be having 10 kids of course but the thought of a big family now sounds so much better than it did before I had any kids. It’s selfish to think like that and I’m very self aware and won’t go too far. I just feel like I’ve found out what my life is meant for and it’s to be a mom. I’ll see what the future brings. I know for sure that we want another one in a year or so.

I don’t know guys.. I know I come on here whenever I’m in a weird mood and just vent and that’s not being a good blogger. I mean, if you look back a few posts it’s almost identical to the one I’m writing now. HELP.. I’d like my blog to be a positive place. But it just feels so good to release my thoughts onto “paper” aka a blog post. It feels good to be honest too. Honest and straight forward. Life isn’t always easy, that’s an understatement. I really love my life, I wouldn’t want it any other way then the way it is right now. We’re making changes to make it even better too. My husband and I are a great team. But sometimes I can stay in a little funk for a few months on end. I’m always working on myself. Improving, learning, getting older. (I’ll be 26 later this month. Shit..)

*Had to pause writing here because my son was crying in bed and didn’t want to go to sleep so I got to rock him and he laid his head on my shoulders for like 10 minutes* That rarely happens, guys. That was such a weird coincidence. Maybe he knew I was sad right now, lol. Yeah right. But it was a nice touch, seeing as he never wants to be cuddled. Like ever. But I know he’s attached to me which is a good feeling. Attached but not cuddly. Haha, aw.

Where was I? I can’t remember. I already feel better after that cuddle. I love him so much it hurts.

I need to write down themes of blog posts I’d like to write. I need to find inspiration. I just rarely have the time to sit down in front of my laptop to be honest. But I’d like to do some sort of tags or maybe more lists of questions. I like answering questions in written form. Don’t know why. I’ll see what I can find. Sorry this wasn’t a good or even understandable read. But maybe it was relatable to one or two moms out there in the universe.

Also. Happy International Women’s Day, ladies ❤ If you made it to the end of this post, I appreciate you so much. Please leave your blog in a comment I need to follow more people on WordPress.