D e c e m b e r

Tomorrow is December 1st and I’m so ready for it. I love everything about December. It’s mostly fun days but it comes with a ton of stress, which ends up being worth it in the end. On Wednesday my son and I fly to my parents and we’re staying there for the whole month. I’m so happy and excited. BUT I am very anxious about the flight, again. The older he gets, the harder the flights get. Since he isn’t two yet he can still be sit on my lap for the flight which is a curse but we did it like this for the last time to save the cash. I know, bla bla. My son is a worm and he does not like to sit still, ever. So it’s always a challenge. But I’ll do my best to iPad and snack the shit out of the trip, haha. (I’ll have to put some Mickey Mouse on the iPad, mental note.)

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Do you have any tips for flying with a toddler? I’d love to hear them.

I’m going to miss my hubby for the few weeks we’ll be apart. But he is very nice about it and doesn’t mind. He misses us of course but he knows it’s good for my mental health to spend as much time as I can with my family back home. Living flights away from your family sucks, especially when you have a child. They miss their first and only grandbaby so much and they can’t wait to see us 🙂

Since my boy is almost 2 now this year he will hopefully understand a bit more what we’re doing as far as Christmas goes. We’re not religious or anything, not at all actually. But celebrating Christmas (we say “Jul” in Norwegian) is a wonderful tradition that to me means family, good food, laughter, warmth and love. We only got him one gift because his birthday is January 31st and he’ll get something bigger then. But he gets so spoiled by the rest of the family anyway and he doesn’t NEED anything so it’s all just bonuses. I’m excited. Tomorrow I need to find outfits for me and my son for Christmas eve. If you didn’t know, in Norway where I’m from, we celebrate on the evening and night of the 24th of December. We do a big dinner and open presents that night. Ugh love it so much.

I won’t bring my laptop there because let’s be honest, getting on the plane with a computer bag sounds awful. All I have time for it one backpack and the UrgoBaby. I don’t want my son running all over the airport disappearing from me so I need to have him strapped to me, lol. I’m already sweating thinking about it. How do parents with two kids travel alone? I guess I’ll find out in the future. ANYWAY. What I was gonna say is, I don’t know how much I’ll blog. I really want to blog, because I absolutely loooove Christmas content. But the app on my phone isn’t really that good for blogging in my opinion. I’ll see how I feel. I just prefer seeing my posts on my laptop and how they look on my blog etc.

Have a LOVELY early December, people. I hope you love this time as much as I do

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I am deeply disturbed.

WARNING: graphic content about murder ahead.

I’ve never done this on my blog before and yes it is a mama blog. But I seriously need to write this down somewhere because I just need to get it all out of my head. I am interested in true crime and I follow several podcasts and YouTubers who recap crimes from around the world. But never have I felt so affected by a case like this one. This seems like it came totally out of nowhere and I just.. can’t get it out of my head.

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So I have been following the case of Shanann Watts and her daughters since I first read the horrible headlines about how they were found. And I haven’t been able to stop thinking about this case ever since. I’ve followed every news story, read almost everything I possibly could. And I think I need to write down my thoughts about it so I can somehow move on and put it out of my mind. That might sound bad but it really has consumed me for a while now, I’ve felt very sad and yesterday they sentenced her husband to life in prison so the case is over, in that sense. Ugh. But the details of the autopsies, how they were found etc is seriously haunting me and I don’t know how to move on.

If you haven’t heard about this case, be warned that it’s one of the saddest things I’ve ever heard. Chris and Shanann Watts was a married couple from Colorado with two daughters, and Shanann was 15 weeks pregnant with their third child, a boy. On the night of August 13th 2018 Shanann came home to their home, they had (according to him) an “emotional conversation” and the next day she was reported missing by her friend. Nobody answered the door and Shanann didn’t pick up her phone, plus she didn’t show up to her scheduled doctors appointment.

Chris Watts did a TV interview during the search for his family and while he’s being interviewed you can hear dogs barking in the background, obviously search and rescue dogs. And he looks so freaked out by that, he looks so guilty during the whole thing. Showing, in my opinion, no sadness or determination to find his family. He just seems extremely nervous. (Nervous about getting caught.) He even referred to his daughters in the past tense. (Why would you do that if they are missing?)

On August 15th, Chris Watts gets arrested and confesses to strangling his wife to death. But he says he only killed his wife because he witnessed her strangling their daughters to death on a baby monitor. Okay. That is something I would never have believed is true. He has retracted that statement and now admits that it was him who killed all four. But how dare he taint a dead mothers reputation like that and put it out there that she killed her babies out of rage because of their “emotional conversation”. Which I assume was about him wanting to get a divorce. If it was true, why on earth was there no 911 call made? Why didn’t you get help for your children?

Oh man I am getting so mad typing this out. This is why I can’t get this out of my mind because I truly do NOT understand this guys thought process. In what world would this play out well for him? He wanted to get rid of his entire old life. Start new without his family. THEN DIVORCE YOUR WIFE AND LEAVE. Be a deadbeat dad instead. Don’t see your children anymore. Leave the state, change your name. I don’t know. But why on earth would murdering them be the answer here? He also somehow thought he would get away with it, yet he dumped their beautiful bodies at different spots around where he worked. He buried Shanann in a shallow grave and, this is the worst part, dumped his two precious daughters, aged 3 and 4, into oil tanks where they were submerged until they were found by police in their pink pyjamas. I just cannot handle how sad this is, guys. As a mom this makes me sob. I want to turn back time so badly for these girls and their mother and somehow change what happened. My heart is so broken.

On November 19th Chris Watts was sentenced to life in prison without the possibility of parole. Shananns family actually begged for the courts not to give him the death penalty because they feel like nobody has a right to take someones life. I hope this haunts him everyday of the rest of his pathetic life. This was so unnecessary, so tragic and could have been avoided with so many other possible solutions. Disgusting excuse of a father and husband.

I might delete this post in the future but I needed to write down my disgust.

Favorite Pins of the Week #5

Happy Monday! Here are my favorite Pins from last week. I recently opened my Pinterest app again and now I feel like I need to use it as much as I used to. It’s so useful. Especially on days where I don’t have any inspiration for what I’m gonna make for dinner. The roast potatoes on the list is the BEST thing I’ve had in awhile. SO good. Same with the chicken patties. I know it says they’re meant for the little ones but I had a PLATE of those things with some Sriracha. I want some right now, lol. I will leave links for each thing at the bottom of the post.

If you use Pinterest, PLEASE leave your username in the comments of this post because I need to follow someone on there. I haven’t followed anyone yet

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Broccoli totsRoast potatoesBread rollsChicken, veggie pattiesFrozen fruit muffinsSweet potato fries w/ avocado, coriander dip

Working Out & Christmas is Near!

We had our 4 year wedding anniversary yesterday. To be honest we didn’t do anything special. It was just a regular Thursday. I did make a pretty good pizza though, hehe. We will celebrate it tomorrow with a kid free shopping trip. He will have some fun with his grandma. I’ll probably get him a gift though, I miss him after 2 hours. I’m okay with 2 hours “off” but after that I don’t feel like I need anymore time. But as a stay at home mom I do appreciate the times I have a baby sitters for a few hours. I won’t deny it is a nice break. And I am so excited about getting some Christmas lights and decorations. I am putting my tree up this weekend. I’m early? I don’t care, I am in the Christmas spirit and I am rolling with it 🎄

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Anyway. I thought I might write a small post about my workout routine. I workout at home in my living room and I’ve been loving it. I started two months ago. I have never worked out before. I actually have never had an interest in it at all. But it’s been almost 2 years now since I gave birth and I am super late to the party on toning my body back up. I don’t do any diets or anything. I don’t really need to lose a lot of weight, I just was curious to see what happened after a while of sticking with a routine. Usually I workout during nap time, but on days where I prefer to have a quiet lunch with some Netflix instead during nap time I have to do my workout with my son running around. Which is fine. He actually finds it hilarious and likes to watch some of it. Haha.

The day I decided to try a small workout I searched on YouTube for “at home workout” and the first that comes up is the FitnessBlender channel. I love it so much. I’ve been following a few different videos so far, stepping up the intensity and length a little bit every week. So far my favorite workout is the “Workout for People Who Get Bored Easily”. It’s so much fun to switch around the different moves. I usually do between 35-50 minutes. 50 on days where I’m really up for it. But I’d say mostly it’s 35 minutes. It creates a very good sweat, my legs burn and I love that feeling. I never thought I’d have a taste for exercise. And now I hope it’s something I’ll stick with. Since I started two months ago I’ve steadily worked out minimum four days a week. Mostly it’s five-six days. I take Sunday off every week. But I have the time, I have the will power and I love what I’m doing so the 30 minutes flies by and it isn’t something intense that takes a toll on my body or anything. I’m very proud and I feel so much more energized and healthy. I actually have gained more confidence too which my husband really loves. As do I ofc 😉 He even joined me for a few workouts here at home and I couldn’t stop laughing. I don’t know why. It was just so nice that he wanted to join to support me. He is the trainer for the local Kendo club in town so he already gets his hardcore workouts two days a week but some more with me won’t hurt him. Hehe. (Kendo is a Japanese martial art. It’s super crazy to watch. I tried once and I felt ridiculous so I don’t do that, lol.)

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My dad is very active and has been a jogger/gym rat for my whole life and he is more proud of me now than ever before. HAHA! (Jk, but not really.) I am going home to spend the whole month of December and possibly parts of January with my family and I am SO excited. My son and I fly out on December 5th. We can’t wait. I am so lucky that I’m able to do that. (My husband joins us later in the month for Christmas celebrations.) And while we’re there my dad will take me to the gym and show me the ropes. I haven’t been to a gym since I was probably 18. *laughs*

I can’t WAIT for December. Since this is my sons second Christmas, this year I feel like he will understand a bit more what it’s about. I still don’t know what to get him. Maybe I’ll find something tomorrow. Last year I got him this super nice ornament for our tree with his name on it, I know it’s not a gift he’d like as a one year old but he was too young to get it anyways. And it’s a beautiful memory and I’ll be putting it on the tree every year.

What are you getting your kids for Christmas? Also, what is your Christmas Eve/morning routines? Do you like or dislike the Holidays? I’d love to hear your Christmas stories 🙂

I’d like to add a little shout out here at the end of my rambly post. I have been really loving Kristin Moras YouTube channel! She has two little boys, works and makes videos. How do you do it girl? She does hauls, “clean with me” videos, baby updates etc. I don’t watch any other mom YouTubers anymore tbh but she is really relatable and seems like a really lovely person 🙂 Click here to check her out! And while you’re at it, check out her blog too. Hehe!

The baby fever returns again.

I’m having the baby fever again and it lasts for a few days usually. We want another child but I don’t know when the right time is. How do you know? I’ve been on the pill since after I gave birth almost 2 years ago so it won’t be now. But in my heart I feel like I really want to get pregnant next year. I’d love my son to have a sibling not too far in age. And since he will be turning 2 in January there will be longer time between him and his sibling than we first thought. If we decide to have another one next year. And if we even are lucky enough to get pregnant. I don’t even know what I’m saying, guys. I really am trying to make sense but it’s so hard with this topic for me. I’m trying not to be selfish.

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My siblings and I are very close in age and it has its ups and downs but all in all I’d say it was one of the most rewarding gifts our parents gave us. (Even though I don’t think we were planned to come that quickly one after another, haha!) I also just love the fact that my son will be the older brother. I have an older sister which is great but I always wanted an older brother too to protect me, hehe.

Anyways.. I know I do this often on this blog. You know, rant. But it felt very natural tonight because I have thought about this all day. And I know other moms might read this so maybe you could possibly give me some advice? I feel like our family would love an addition. We’re in a good place. We love our new apartment, there is good space here. Our son is almost 2. I believe I could handle two. You don’t know what it’s like until you’re there I guess but.. I just have a faith in my abilities as a mom.

Did I make any sense? It feels good to have typed it out. Now I’m going to play a video game or something and just zone out for the rest of the night. Haha!

WHY..

Why am I so bad at blogging? I mean, I have things I could write about. But I also just feel like whatever I could write would be pretty dull. Just everyday kinda stuff. But then again that’s the kinda things I like reading about. Mom life. I don’t know.. I always say “I’m going to be a better blogger” but it never happens. I am upset about it..

Do you have any tips on how to be a better blogger? ❤

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We moved. Again 😜

So I’m currently on day 6 of working out. I’ll take today off. I only do a 30 minute cardio workout at home and I follow a YouTube video but I’m sweaty af when it’s over. And I absolutely love it. I’m surprised at myself. I am already feeling changes in my mood and most importantly – I feel more energized. I have more energy. I can’t believe it. The exercises I do are getting slightly easier day by day. I’m happy. Okay, now on to something else.

My husband and I are putting up an IKEA wardrobe today and it’s so hard. There is NO way I could have ever done this by myself. I’m just sitting on the side doing what he tells me to do, holding things up etc. Lol! We’re halfway. We just have to put the sliding doors on now which looks like the hardest part. I love IKEA but I hate it at the same time.

Hubby has lived in this apartment since September 1st but baby and I got here last Saturday. We’ve got a dishwasher put in which I’ve never owned before so I’m so happy to be saving time by not having to do dishes! I’ve done them by hand for so many years now that I was more than ready for this change. We also have a hobby room that my husband and I share. He put up a double desk before I got here last weekend (IKEA alone, brave guy) and in there we build and paint Warhammer models (I won’t explain what it is, haha, but painting is an anxiety relief for me) and I can be in peace on my laptop or whatever else we want to do.

I get so excited thinking about this wardrobe being finished and I get all our clothes organised.. *Heart eyes* But we have so much clothes that it’s insane. Yesterday I went through all of mine and I managed to get three or four big bags of them off to Oxfam. I realised I had to think “will I ever wear this again?” and when I did that, it was almost like I couldn’t stop.

Anyway. I hope you’re all well! I wish we could talk more. If you’re on Twitter pleeease add me @Hariietto 🤩